Winter Understanding

Living out here in the middle of Ohio has been a challenge within my own mind, soul, and physical life. It has brought me to the most healthiest times of my life because I have actually been able to set aside all distractions and get down to the root of what makes me me. Within this journey it is has brought me to highs and lows and realizing that there is more to life than satisfying myself. I have realized that when I give myself up to God more and more I grow stronger as a person and within my own spiritual life. When I rely on what I see as being happy or doing it on my own I find myself in a deep hole. I realize that there is nothing better than being submitted to God and his will whatever it looks like. I also realized no one can tell u what to do with your life except God because it is useless to strive on your own and find yourself thirty years down the road dying inside grasping for life that has no real purpose other than your own wants and needs and the day to day grind. Therefore each day I am continually seeking to live more and more open with God and loving others, Jesus made it really clear that all we need to Do is love God with all we are and love our neighbors as ourselves and through these actions we show our devotion to God and allow him to complete our lives. The winter has been the best time to realize this because you are stuck in your house most of the times, I am not saying I perfect example of what a christian is but I am striving to follow more and more after Jesus example but it is so hard. Hopefully through this time in my life I will be a more healthy and whole person.

On a less serious note it is great to be married and there is nothing like having a wife to bounce things off of. Someone who actually tells you when your wrong and allows you to grow just through her presence. I got my license a couple weeks back and it has inspired me to be more proactive and actually get things done. Procrastination is one of my biggest downfalls lol. I have been reading a lot lately also mainely, works of love, 1984, and just finshed of mice and men and it is so good to read because it gets your mind active and thinking about many things which also helps me to process life.

-seee ya . .
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